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Dear Honkeys, Hobos and Hornballs,

So I haven’t written anything in here for quite some time. I am sorry. I WILL START WRITING INHERE LIKE THOSE BAD BREAKUP LETTERS! UR A DIRYT SLUT AND I WILL NOT GIVE BACK YOUR BLACK T-SHIRT!

Okay, now that I’ve succeeded in using the word “slut” and making reference to a Ben Folds Five tune…it’s officially time to move on.

I think I’m starting to feel like an adult. As a kid, you kinda think it just kind of happens. (At least, that’s how I always felt.) You grow up step-by-step, but everything always seemed to be measured in milestones.

Presenting Missy’s Past Theory of Becoming an Adult…Not necessarily in sequential order:

You get your driver’s license/start driving. You get your first job. You go to Prom. You turn 18. You live on your own for the first time. You can drink (legally). You graduate college. You start your first job. You buy a house. You get married. You have kids. You retire. You forget who you are and poop yourself.

Now I’m finding it’s not so much about events as it is about one’s frame of mind. You invest your time and focus on different things. You start figuring out who you are as a person and are finally comfortable with it.

Which brings me back around to why I knew I had to start writing in here again–I’ve lost my focus…again. I need to go back into kid-dom a bit. After I get into the routine of doing something, I easily become a robot. In fact, I’ve started to feel/seem extremely boring and lame these days. It’s likel I’ve nothing to talk about even though so much more is going on in my life than when I was “exciting.” (Hey! At first, I typed “extremely” as “exxxtremely.” Maybe I’m not so boring. Hey-yooooo!)

I just need something to stimulate my mind a bit every now and then because I like being at least somewhat entertaining to those around me. I want to be random and talk about nothing all the time. I want to be intriguing, and I want to be able to hold up my end of the conversation with something other than “Oh yeah? That’s cool….*crickets chirping*”

Life is great now though. I have amazing, super, fantastic, cool-a$$ people around me…I just feel like I’m not holding up my end of the deal. HA.

In other news…to dispel any notions you might have had about me…guess what?

I’m a freaking introvert.

I know that’s shocking for most of you. (Riiiiight.) For some reason, I thought I was more on the extroverted side because I’m stimulated by being around other people and I like being in the spotlight.

Honestly though… what’s going on in my own head will always be more important than anything actually going on around me.

Rock.

Ms.A.D.

(Lame.)