There’s only so much I can say right now…BUT first and foremost… THANK YOU to everyone for their support. All of your thoughts and prayers are certainly guiding us through this horrific and trying time. I honestly don’t know where/how I’d be without all of the absolutely wonderful people around me right now. It’s unbelievable. I am so so so so lucky and blessed. Thank you.
The moment I heard this song–back in 2005–I thought of my mom. I remember getting the biggest goosebumps and crying the first time I really paid attention to the lyrics. Not only is this one of the bands I respected the most (musically, at least), but the lyrics…God, I remember standing at the last KC Tool concert in 2005, watching those green lasers flash across Kemper, listening to the lyrics and getting the chills. If you know either my mom and/or me well enough (and the backstory on the lyricist), you’ll know why this song hits me.
Regardless, it’s still beautifully written, haunting and touching. I think I told her the backstory on the song and lyrics but she never heard it. I’m positive she agreed that the song was wonderful at the time; I just hope she understood this part of me before she left or at least understands now.
You believed
You believed in movements none could see
You believed in me
A passionate spirit
Uncompromised
Boundless and open
A light in your eyes
Then immobilized
Broken, broken
Fell at the hands of those movements I wouldn’t see
Yet, it was you who prayed for me
So, what have I done to be a [son] to an angel
What have I done to be worthy
Daylight dims leaving cold fluorescents
Difficult to see you in this light
Please forgive this selfish question, but
What am I to say to all these ghouls tonight
She never told a lie
Well might’ve told a lie
But never lived one
Didn’t have a life
Didn’t have a life
But surely saved one
See? I’m alright, now it’s time for us to let you go…
Listen to the tales and romanticize
How we follow the path of the hero
Boast about the day when the rivers overrun
How we rise to the height of our halo
Listen to the tales as we all rationalize
Our way into the arms of the savior
Fading all the trials and the tribulations
None of us have actually been there
Not like you
Ignorant flippants in the congregation
Gather around spewing sympathy
Spare me
None of them can even hold a candle up to you
Blinded by choices hypocrites won’t seek
But enough about the collective Judas’
Who could deny you were the one who illuminated
My little piece of the divine
This little light of mine
The gift you passed onto me
i’ll let it shine
To guide you safely on your way
Your way home
What are they going to do when the lights go down
Without you guide them home to Zion
What are they going to do when the river is overrun
Other than tremble incessantly
High is the way but our eyes are upon the ground
You were the light and the way, that they will only read about
I only pray, heaven knows when to lift you out
Ten thousand days in the fire is long enough
You’re going home
You’re the only one who can hold your head up high
Shake your fist at the gates saying:
I have come home now
Fetch me the spirit
The son, and the father
Tell them their pillar of faith has ascended
It’s time now, my time now
Give me my, give me my, wings
Give me my
Give me my wings
You are the light and the way
That they will only read about
Set as I am in my ways and my arrogance
Burning all through tossed upon non-believers
You were my witness
My eyes, my evidence
Judith Marie, unconditional one
Daylight dims
Leaving cold fluorescence
Difficult to see you in this light
Please forgive this bold suggestion
Should you see your maker’s face tonight
Look them in the eye
Look them in the eye, and tell them
I never lived a lie, never took a life
But surely saved one, hallelujah
it’s time for you to bring me home
*Please listen to the song in the previous post if you wish. Warning: It’s LONNNNG. No, really. Even for Tool, it’s LONNNNG.
Love you, Mama.
